Pressing On

My brain is literally still vibrating and my right eye has retained that little twitch that developed yesterday. In all seriousness, yesterday was the WORST DAY EVER. Period. Screaming, crying, spitting, hitting, "NO!", "I don't love you anymore!", and complaining (in that higher pitch whiney sound). I was invisible to all around me except when all the above was happening- I was then the target for that mess. When I spoke, no one heard. When I yelled, they still didn't hear. When I put myself in my room for a 3 minute time-out, it went completely unnoticed. (which was fine at the time)

Most days as a stay at home mom are tolerable. My good to great moments overshadow the not so good moments and there is a little balance... but yesterday... I can honestly say nothing good happened. I thought at one point I would pack a small bag and seek refuge somewhere kid-less. And to top the mother of all bad days, my husband didn't get home until we were on the last leg of the race. Not his fault, but I was smokin' hot mad when he walked through that front door all chipper and patient beyond words. I really wanted to say... no, YELL some super unkind things, but I mostly kept it all to myself (except when I had to murmur under my breath).

Finally, when it was all quiet and everyone was in bed (around 7:30pm), I did the math in my, at that point, hard to process things brain. 13 hours of this. 13 hours of being tortured within an inch of my life. 13 hours of a sweating brow and racing heart beat. 13 hours of unappreciated sacrifice and labor. I was exhausted. So I slept. Until exactly 7:58 when I was woken by screams from Hunter's room. He needed his airplane, apparently. Kid was still asleep, but still whining. I mustered up the last bit of humanity I could find and hugged and kissed him and told him to get some sleep.

From there I made my way downstairs and watched a movie. Not just any movie- I watched The Last Song. OMG! Maybe I'm just overly emotional at this point, but I think I cried through about a third of the movie. I could have gone without that, but I think I just probably needed a good cry- I was due, I guess.

So, a few prayers later and the sure knowledge that I was heard, I know now that I can do it! I will make it through today and tomorrow and the next day and I will do my best to raise my boys in the nurture and admonition of the Lord. I've felt invisible for a long time- just another presense in my home to keep the kids from a sure concussion. But I was heard last night. I am an invaluable asset to this family. I can do it! The Lord will not fail me- He will always hear me. I hope that the 2 people that follow or read this will see this as well. Vacations are always nice, but a simple prayer can work wonders for the soul.

Zommmmbie!

Thank you Scooby-Doo. :) My 2 year old came in the kitchen one day with his arms stretched out rocking side to side while he slowly walked... occasionally rolling his eyes around repeating (or should I say chanting) "Zommmmmbie, Zommmmmbie." My sister was a witness to this and I vowed I would get this act on video. I did, but not as dramatic, but nonetheless funny. Enjoy! I still laugh every time I watch this!

LOVE/HATE RELATIONSHIPS

I've been so busy these last weeks, I literally forgot to blog. So here are the things I've submerged myself in- Warning: majorly heavy stuff by the way.

I'll first start with these sinful delights. I discovered these not long ago and in a matter of 4 days I alone consumed 3 boxes on my own. I've discovered that there is no such thing as mild PMS. Oxymoron much??

I will now move onto the matter of the Mockingjay. sniffle, sniffle. I loved the book, but it seriously brought on a major case of anti-social behavior. I had to go get another book to read to pull. myself. together. (as I slap my cheeks)The residual trauma still remains, but as the days pass, I'm beginning to work myself back into society. You can click my Goodreads widget on the right to see what else I've been up to book wise.

Veronica Mars. Thanks to the power marriage of that magical box otherwise known as the Wii and a Netflix subscription the possibilites are endless. I discovered this show while perusing the many titles Netflix offers. I've blown through the first 2 seasons and I'm halfway through the 3rd and final (thank heavens)season.

I've also taken up yoga, pilates, and a something called body flow, which is a mix of tai chi, yoga, and pilates. I laugh when I say I go to find my zen, but there is some truth to that statement. I'm dripping wet with sweat, but feel oddly relaxed when I leave. The only thing I hate about these classes is I stress to find the time to go because of the instant love I fell into when I began these workouts. I purposely chose this pose to brag. I can totally do this now...just kidding. I will probably never be able to do that. But on a side note: I have moved up to regular girl flexibility now. When I began the classes, I had the flexibity of a man. :)

YOU GOTTA FIGHT... FOR YOUR RIGHT.... TO PARRRTAY!

So Hunter had his family birthday party about a week ago and we had a good time! Hunter requested Super Mario Brothers cupcakes, got some good presents including, motorcycles and monster trucks from Leah and the gang, a train set (which Dane has currently confiscated) from Nana and Papa, a bucket of soldiers from Uncle Jeff, Gormittis from Corbin and Dane, and the mother of all gifts- a Nintendo DS XL from Matt and Me. We rounded off the festivities with none other than a pinata. We are always looking for an excuse to hit something and then get candy for doing it! :) I would also like to pat myself on the back for making homemade pizzas- they were really good and in the end, we only had a couple of slices left over!
Birthday boy blows out his candles!
Are these not the coolest cupcakes, evah! Jessica Whetstone made these for us and I must say, she did a fantastic job! The kids could not keep away from them.
Hunter chose Mario, of course.
Hunter with his new Nintendo DS XL (along with a new MarioKart game)- I know, before scoffing ensues, he really can play the games and he was already trying to monopolize Corbin's DS (much to his dismay). It was a stellar investment but now instead of fighting over the DS, they fight over the games now. **As a side note- I will be creating a DS library system so that these guys have to check out the game from me so I'm not reduced to braining them.**Who can resist a pinata?! We look for any kind of excuse it seems to get one! I got lots of pictures of the kids hitting it, but I've decided to make this post just about Hunter. And yes, that is a long sleeve shirt in the middle of July. I believe he woke chilly from his nap, so Matt let him put on a long sleeve shirt. It was his birthday, whatever.

FOUR!

Happy 4th Birthday to my Hunter! What big, handsome boy he is! Pictures to come after family birthday party...

Playing at Broad River

We had an impromptu outing to the Broad River in downtown Columbia yesterday (7/11/10). I can't believe I've never gone down there after living here my entire life! It was fun and it reminded me of how we've gotten over the "hump" and seem to have some extra flexibility in doing more with the kids without having to pack like crazy to do something like this.

I LOVE this picture of Corbin and Hunter. Brotherly love... for the moment. :)

Dane especially had a great time at Broad River. Watching him climb the rocks and stand there alone made me nervous, but also happy that he's able to hang with his big brothers. He was so excited to be out there by himself. I called his name when he was out there and he said, "cheese" as I snapped this picture.






Matt and his mini me- I love this picture! Hunter was the first out on the rocks.




Corbin took this picture of us. Wished we had someone out there with us to snap a photo of all of us. Corbin took a good picture though. :)


My boy-o's on the river. This is another favorite of mine. Feeling pretty fortunate right about now.

... And if I become the 2010 Miss River Rock I will stand here every Saturday as a statue to represent all of those women who don't shower, sport greasy, pulled backed root-showing hair and walk the streets in 2 day old worn jean shorts, a super low cut t-shirt, and barefoot (hopefully not pregnant). heh! heh!

We finally decided to go, so Matt had to help all of us over and through the water. It wouldn't have mattered if we would have brought our swimsuits and towels... next time though! Hunter and Dane did not escape getting pretty wet though, so to avoid driving home, we hopped over to Richland Mall and made a quick stop at the clearance rack at Gymboree and continue on our "STAY TRIP" around town going to docks, checking out trails, buying boiled peanuts from a strange man, getting ice cream and rounding the day off with a new Wii Resort game ala daddy.

Next on the Wilson agenda... Hunter's 4th Birthday!

The Beach

My Mom and Dad were nice enough to take us all on vacation to Myrtle Beach this summer. We got to stay in a house (not on the water, but close to it) and like chocolate syrup on ice cream, they rented a golf cart- which I believe was the highlight of the kids' trip. Now, they point out when they see one and begin to list off benefits of having one... and no, I didn't get pictures of it b/c I was a terrible photographer this trip. I had too much to worry about and I mostly relied on my sister and mom to take pictures... but I did get a few good ones. :)


We were obsessed with digging holes! Leah and I jumped in on the hole digging action and I must admit, we got some head turns day after day on our mad skills (or they could have just been checking us out... he he he)


We even made little steps so the kids wouldn't collapse our walls. :) They did a little digging here and there.


Dane loved the "wah-yer"! Before bed every night, the only way I could get him to quietly go to sleep was to tell him we would go play in the water when he woke up. :) My baby is growing up so fast!... but I'll save that whine for another post. :)


Did you have fun at the beach, Hunter? 2 thumbs up, apparently.



And no, I have no pictures of me on my camera from this beach trip- my mom and sister have some though.